Open The Eyes of my Heart

My favourite version of : Open The Eyes of my Heart !

Afternoon Tea & Melba Buffet for Dinner ~ 19.01.2013

Experiencing the splendid, and delicate Afternoon Tea moment with Tika at Sofitel Lounge on the Saturday afternoon had become one of the highlights for the more than the ordinary day. It would be categorized as unique, rare occasion and the impartial : that both ladies were filled with merriment. Pour mon, 2 hours was a little quick. Tika, I would love to have another quality time with you again. Appreciate the moment that we had for the day. Most importantly, thank you Tika, for still want to have this friendship continues.

Followed by this, my partner, Mik had booked a sudden dinner appointmen, not telling me beforehand. A kind of surprise which means afternoon tea had led to another dinner date. And yes, I was ready to go ( and Tika had done a marvelous plait for me , merci ! ). The sashimi never failed and the ambiance was pleasant. Although Langham's Melba has become one of my favourite, as for me, no matter where we have meals together, I always love having meals with him around.

January 2013

"There is a reason God limits our days, to make each one precious " 
- The Time Keeper by Mitch Albom -

 "And whatsover ye do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God and the Father by him." - Colossians 3:17

Monday to Friday, each day to face with the awareness that my knowledge and experiences are limited, draws me to remember to rely on His strength quietly, in a simple and private manner. To remember, this job is entrusted and I want to keep this attitude going. To work, to serve, to love.  

Meeting lots of people, especially my new colleagues somehow made me wonder and observe, in a way I never did before. Many times, my mind tried to decipher the causes of words and behavior that sprang from them. Be patient, to do the possible best and put oneself in others shoes, and to listen ; these are the lessons to heed each day.

My family and home have becoming more important in a degree better than previously ever. Even though it would never be perfect and changes are admittedly very difficult. At least, to love would mean to be nice, to do chores in a way to serve and help and not to fight back. Knowing that one day, I will leave this house, made me appreciate it better.

" To love every note " - quoted by the Tamar Smolyar, the head of Music Department from Monash University, made me remember each time whenever I have the chance to practice during limited time sphere that I have. Somehow, I refuse to let go and determine to embrace the fact that that I am still a musician. Indeed, practice is the only sole path to achieve.

Human relations, perhaps, is the most complicated and difficult to attain. Some friends, come and go, some of them still take part in you. Some long acquaintances request for rendevous, unfortunately I failed them sometimes. Some, however, still maintain good relations and I'm thankful for whoever I have now and I would remember to cherish them as best as I could. And some, though they are distant away or for certain reasons, almost never being able to spend time with me anymore, yet inside my heart, no matter what, they are still my friends that I love.

In a very personal way that is unexplainable, I love, not because he loves me. But, I have fallen in love deeper each day.

7 and a 1/2 month of relationship, has continued to mature. I do learn, not only who my partner really is in a deeper way, I have been discovering more about my own self as well. Though many challenges ahead and routes are never as smooth as we wish, there's a beauty to face things together. And in this month, it is special, to purchase and owe something for the first time together, to commit and to make steps for other things to come. Although sometimes, whys and hows occupied our head, the constant reminder of " having faith " keeps us both going and we are never alone. For He watches us and may 2013 be a better year for us.

Lastly, When I saw my checklist that I wrote without expecting the fulfillment back in March 2012 this morning, I simply get amazed on how some of the wishes have come true in an unexpected way. This also proves on how much He cares and dares to trust me with things that I am too afraid to make a step.Does this reflect the beginning of entering the next level ? I know not the answer. I deny not that I often failed, slipped and fell, unable to overcome my weaknesses and flesh many times, fighting fears and struggling with inner self. I admit that I am not that good. Yes, still sin and no better than anyone else. I also know that, I don't deserve this and that but.. despite of this, I am still loved by Him. God never leave me and still accept me and care for me.

Grateful for today's Words that remind me that the way to please Him is " HAVE FAITH "

Thank you for January 2013.

On the 29th December of 2012..

A very personal day..I should say.. Not feeling very well since days before, I decided not to plan anything and let the day came as it would be.. as natural as it should be.. 

My family were not around for the day , yet a brief meeting with them in the morning before they left for travel was pleasant..

Now I am 28.... in 2012.. many things have passed through.. all the goods and the not-so..throughout the year. But knowing that it's all part of the growing process. I continue to learn.

As for my birthday,the only and only company that I have for the day is my partner, my boyfriend...who put so much effort to make it as best as it could be..

Despite the busy days , the tired working hours, and other personal agenda.., I knew you have put so much thoughts for this....and it really meant a lot to me.. and I hope that as I am turning 28.. I will cherish each minute, each second and love him more and more as day goes by....becoming the best partner as I could be.

Apart from the lovely cake and the fabulous gift, .... Mik, you are my best present on my birthday :) 

The Four Important Lessons

These are the four important lessons in my life now : 

1)  Past is past. Once the season is over, it will never return as time is unable to repeat itself.  Learn from it and move on. Never made mistakes from the past anymore

2)   Cherish all that you have now, especially people.
    Embrace them as you never did before…Treasure your family members, extended family, colleagues, existing friends, especially those you still have and those you neglect before, human around you… Treat them nicely and be kind, yet remain cautious on maintaining distance and private life.

3)  Love your partner.

Love as best as you can.

Love at all times, despite the circumstances

Love is about giving, not gaining, loyalty and commitment.

Love improves, and brings the best of your partner and yourself.

Giving thanks and cherish each second, each minute, each hour you have with your lover. 

Aim hard to achieve true love

4)   Most importantly…

God is the only source of all, all that I have come from Him alone.

You can’t buy peace from the world, let alone human…only Jesus can give real peace.

Who never makes mistake? None of us is righteous and we are sinners who need a Saviour..(Romans 3:23-24)… Indeed, through grace we are given mercy, forgiveness hope…

Thus, each day I strive in reminding myself that I need Him , each day I need strength to go on.. knowing that I am weak without Him.. and each day I commit, in prayer and faith...Sometimes I fall, sometimes I made mistakes.. but I know I have to stand up and never give up, knowing that He never leaves me nor forsake me.

In His promise, I stand.

Reflection

Scenes and acts change in drama opera and ballet, and so does our lives. 

10th June 2012 marked the significant change in my life, which was unpredictable, yet amiable. 

There are blissful moments, full of delights, ceaseless amusement that I am thankful of..

I believe that there are reasons behind all things. Nevertheless, some are exclusive... 

In spite of all,.. many lessons  have been learnt hoping that in the future..I would mature ..

One thing that I could not deny...that would be grace.

All that I have, all that I am.. I know surely it is permitted ...

Wouldn't I cherish it ? Wouldn't I be grateful ? 

Yes.. I do..

For all the time and moments that I have.. .

For all the parts to partake... in all seasons of lives....I want to give my best.. no matter how difficult or how hard it is.. I have fully committed for this...

May this journey be truly blessed.. may this journey change me to be a better woman, to be a better partner, to be faithful to the end...

Holding Hands - Steve Green

One day, far away, you gently won my heart
And one night, by candlelight, we made a vow to never part
And then it seemed just like a dream
When wide eyed, side by side
We faced the future holding hands

Years fly, they hurry by, the simple times are gone
Bills due, a kid or two, a week can feel eight days long
By fading light, let's kiss goodnight
And then we trace God's daily grace
Thankful we're still holding hands

There's a hope that won't let go
There's a truth we know
God is holding us
In His arms

Thoughts stray far away to all that lies ahead
In frail days when strength fades
Will we still mean all that we said?
Our love's secure, so rest assured
Come what may 'til that day
We'll walk forever holding hands

By God's grace 'til that day
We'll walk forever holding hands

(Love, Faith & Hope ~ True love never fails) 

The May State of Life

Many words inside, yet unable to truly convey them into sentences.. significantly.. personally..privately..it is a path with the bitter sweet, fragrant and aroma.. mise en place.. All that I am certain is that.. it is worth it.. No matter how vague it is now, there will be a day it would be crystal clear.. and I am waiting.. patiently. Each day passed by, the more assured I am..as it is the form of savoir-faire ..c'est mon la vie...I doubt not the moments with form of struggles and doubts.. yet, wouldn't it adds colours and sparks that no one else would comprehend ? Journey of life.. even unexpected gestures have made me simply.. smile .. I cherish each second ..yes, I do...

The Very Thought of You

The very thought of you and I forget to do
The little ordinary things that everyone ought to do
I'm living in a kind of daydream
I'm happy as a king
And foolish though it may seem
To me that's everything

The mere idea of you, the longing here for you
You'll never know how slow the moments go till I'm near you
I see your face in every flower
Your eyes in stars above
It's just the thought of you
The very thought of you, my love

By : Ray Noble (1934)

Tuhan Pasti Sanggup

Kuatkanlah hatimu
Lewati setiap persoalan
Tuhan Yesus slalu menopangmu
Jangan berhenti harap padaNya

Tuhan pasti sanggup
TanganNya takkan terlambat 'tuk mengangkatmu
Tuhan masih sanggup
Percayalah Dia tak tinggalkan mu
(Dia kan mengangkatmu)

Link : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Kq3BFRDl5I

Di saat kita merasa lemah, di saat kita tidak memiliki jalan keluar, Tuhan Yesus adalah tempat pengharapan. Sering kali situasi membuat kita merasa gagal, tetapi kutetap percaya, bahwa Tuhan akan membuka jalan dengan cara yang ajaib. Bahkan, segala hal yang terjadi diizinkan Bapa dengan maksud yang baik. Walau kadang kita tidak bisa berbuat apa-apa, biarlah kubawa semua doa kepada Dia, sebab Dia Bapa yang mendengar segala isi hati kita dan Dia sanggup. Kuatkanlah hatimu..