Mon Anniversaire 2011

Being grateful for another year that I am entrusted to live with, indeed. Sincerely I could not be thankful enough for all that have happened. As for this year birthday, I would like to thank you as much as I could, for all the people in my lives, all the wishes, all the cares, all the gifts, and most importantly, the sincere hearts.

28th December 2011 noon, my Dondon ex colleagues; Alan, Mindy, Jay, Yong & Fiona had organized an awesome Korean dinner together and Cake time. Although we had been busy and hardly spent time with one another, reflecting back on how much they still care and loyal up to this day, I could not help it, but just smile whenever I remember them. Thank you all. Thank you also for Alan, Mindy & Jay for the lovely presents.

In a certain manner, honestly I missed the company that I had similar to the year before, but for 29th December 2011.. it was rare a solitary birthday. Perhaps suitable for me as it is amiably private moment for me. Pleasant indeed to indulge in my own world, ripping off the gifts with the love of mystery. Thank you and thank you for all of the gifts. I love each one of them, and all of them made brought happiness. And surprisingly, there are certain items that I have been always wanting to buy, yet, are given on my birthdays. Example : Bobbi Brown Eye Shadow (from Tika),2012 Diary (from my dear Liv) & Peter Alexander's clothes with Napoleon make up kit (from dear Syella). It must be Him, who knew what I need and put it in their hearts...Thank you Father.

And also, I will never forget my three companions, who have always been there. I love their gifts so much... It truly depicts who much they know me and understand who i really am. Thank you very much: Al, El & Ben. These are really, truly, marvelous. Also, thank you so much for Anastasya, who was the first giver of the year. I love that Paris box a lot. Missing her. Apart from that, thank you for Kristi, who celebrated my birthday on the 31st, thank you for your effort and the sharing that we shared. Thank You also for my FA members who celebrated my birthday on the 1st of January 2012. And as for all the wishes and greetings, may all of you be blessed !

Lastly, the dinner for this year birthday: a nonetheless moment that is as important, for it is a tradition for me to spend that hours with people who are essentially special and impertinent on my special day. And as for this year, it was a privilege to have my most loyal & closest friend to accompany me. It was simple , memorable & the loveliest dinner I have for my birthday throughout my life. One of a great gift that I really could never ever say thank you enough, is the long lasting quality times and friendship, that is extremely costly. With all of my heart : Merci Beaucoup.

Sharing from Workplace

My current occupation as a customer service coordinator..

I have been working for almost 9 months. Do I like it ? not really. But i live with it, without a choice.
I got this job: by grace. (Dec 2010)
I never ever even thought about applying for customer service job.(In fact, I didn't apply. A kind hearted manager approached me in church and I was given this job).

Some background, Before and After:

Honestly I admitted that I did and maybe do, or do, have problems with people and temper.
I prefered a quiet environment of work, where I did not have to speak to strangers everyday, with no disruption when I am doing work. Another thing is, I am so used to solitary and I love it. Being alone doing work, had been my life for years.

My academic life requires me to spend a lot of time alone. I could shut myself in a library reading and practicing for whole day, without talking to a single soul. I was a student, who preferred to eat alone so that I could spend time studying. I was friendless even in few uni subjects, without an inkling of the need of a company.

These moulded my characters to be a perfectionist, a loner and an independent individual. Followed by this, ended up working in a hectic place where I committed, I strived, climbed to the top, became on of the best. Yet, my temper was built up lot there, being impatient, being easily angered or "manipulation" of stuff were a daily norm of behaviour that did not only acceptted as tolerable, but sometimes are required.

Then after I quit the company, I was jobless for 8 months, depressed due to personal problem, and desperate for a job in 2010..

22th December 2010, I was accepted in the current place.

Initially, it was a really hard place to work due to the huge differences in the environment in comparison to my uni and previous work situation. Like it or not, I need to talk, forced to accept complaints and learned to be patient.

I sort of asking for mercy.. begging and telling myself that : One day, you have to get out from this place.
And the more I cried out, the more I struggled...and the more depressed I become at work. Sanctification and denying the true you is extremely hard.

mid April 2011...
Finally, I started to realise that, I have to pray for the work place. Then I took a day in a week to start praying for the place. May the Lord bless this place, that's the main point, bless the souls, save the souls. And change myself, for I realise that my being here ... have to be the light of the place..
It doesn't have to be a long prayer.. but I believe that, when we do it, faithfully, God works.

As for me, I was undergoing a hard changes. I realise that God put me here for a training. To learn to talk. To learn to rejoice, to learn to smile and care and BE HUMBLE. Scolded and being complained sometimes, but what else I could do, then just keep my mouth zipped..It is hard, but whenever I started to let my nature to have the stage, " No " and " SHut Up" are the frequent terms, bombarding my heart.

Gradually

The more we obey, the more we realise, it is He taking over us.
To be honest, the job is still very boring and dry (honestly), but I live with it. Believing that one day I still could go out for the place.But not now.

Sometimes, I received gifts from customers ( clothes, books, foods that I never expect and I did not deserve these. And I wonder, why did these people buy me stuff ? They do touch my heart..and will be remembered.

I myself still have struggles with my flesh, with all the weaknesses I have and yes, I do need His strength to be patient daily, to care, to at least be nice to customer, and to remember HIm. Daily prayer before work is important. I humbly encourage you all to give 5 mins prayer before you work or class or exam or etc.

Epilogue

Remember Joseph ? Who was sent to Potiphar's house and the place was bless ? I believe that when His presence is in us, He controls the place. No one could harm you unless He permits. And the place would have a different atmosphere.

Sometimes, God led us to a place or a situation, where we complainted a lot. Yet, in the end, we never know that, He is planning of something and His plan would never be as what we thought.

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11)

Dealing with today's Problems

I have been failing my drive tests too often that, I have reached to the point where... I am devoid of any emotions left.

What concerns me the most, is the money. I have spent lots of sums of money for the sake of getting a license, and I don't think I have had ever spent even that much for clothes. My mind told me that, perhaps I am not even meant for the license. Perhaps I don't have the talent for driving at all.... Though it feels sucks.. I just have to resign to the fate and ..the only thing I know is, well.. just pay the money for another try.

I did not have anyone to call too when I finished the test, except notify my best friend via text messages. My feet brought me straight to the place that I used to put my commitment & energy there.. yes, my former work place don 1.

As I sat down and waited for my meal, I felt slightly nostalgic feeling towards this place. The atmosphere, the vibe, the pace.... Though it is still as it is; small, old, smells of teriyaki sauce, not as clean and bright as my office, woody and a little.. dodgy ? .. I still have that sense of belonging and pride to this place. At least this is a remaining place that I still have some kind of triumphant feel, indescribable in words. At least this place acknowledged me to a certain degree.. And I know, I have decided to move on from this place, never coming back, but still, maintaining the relations.

My brief visit comforted me. Perhaps meeting my ex managers were the reasons, or was I looking back to the olden days. Yet, life moves on and Don1 have taught me that, I did able to climb to the top, no matter how many times I struggled there in the past. It was a success and I have to do the same at my current life situation, especially for my present job.

Painful Sight of the most Fundamental Moral Issue.

It always hurts when we see how the younger generation group treat their seniors or older generation with disrespect. I know this is something that is unavoidable since the world is changing; everyone has their own free right, education teaches kids to raise questions, and media is full with too much immoral teachings...Yeah... moral is degrading, what has this world changing to be ?

In the past, older people are highly regarded. When they say 'Do it', you 'Do it.' When they say 'NO', you should obey. No question asked. They are older. They deserve more respect and there's no objection in this. Yet, in this so called post-modern world where everything is relative, I see kids screaming at their parents, younger people shouted back and argued with their older people with not a slight of fear. I see weird attitudes, selfish behavior, and 'I don't need you to Control me' that sort of body languages...or many more things that I don't want to mention here as they are Too Much !

It is very sad... And i think everyone should be aware of this issue.
And.. again,

It hurts, when I see how the young treats the elderly, especially when you see it with your own eyes.

I know both parties have faults. We are all selfish human are we ?But, there is so called things called ' Conscious', 'Emotion' , 'Feelings, ' Etiquette' and 'Love'. Can't we feel the hurt when others are hurt ? Can't we feel sad when others are sad ? I am not talking about empathy. I am talking about the supposedly accepted things and morality, which, nowadays, it is changing...

And if this generation never learn, how about the next generation ? and the next after ?

Sigh...

Nothing else could help, other than Faith, Love and Hope....

current Financial status..

Activity : Checking out on my Balance.

Sigh, I am running out of money soon.

It's been 9 months since the last time I had a stable income and had that blessing to spend and enjoy without any worries of how much the numbers would drop down. And these days, especially since I have moved into zone 2 area, meaning - paying more than I used to be. At the moment, for my own access to make may daily transaction.. I only have less than 300 left.

Must be the driving tests and the fees involved, or perhaps other things that unavoidable. Surely I have to go back to work extra next week to get back some extra cash, no matter what. At least, when I work what I am working now, I could survive for that week, and I could save around 40-50. To simplify, when I work for that week, I survive for that week. If I don't, I would be in trouble.

However, looking back at how I have survived all these months. I am pretty amazed at How Much my Lord is taking care of me. He provides and take care of my provision. So far so good, and so far, I have enough and grateful for the sufficiency...

I am longing to have what I really need now : a proper job and a proper income. I am not aiming for high income that makes me rich or goes up the social ladder. But, a steady one would do.

Really hope that next year I would have these 3 needs to be fulfilled : a job, a stable income and a driving license. Yup, I do.

My Day-Off and... my best guy friend

I can't remember when was the last time I had a weekday off. Well, today I had one and it was good. I could wake up at 9 instead of the usual 7.. then head of to the city for medical check up. Unfortunately, I had fasted too long and the nurse refused to take my blood. Sigh, I was very hungry at that time, but nothing I could do. So, I have to come again next Wednesday morning. Followed by this, I went for reading accompanied by my fav. mocha at Starbuck and waited for my friend. We went for lunch, then window shopping at many places along Collins, Myer & David Jones.

At Tiffany & Co., I saw one very nice necklace, but I will not buy it. It's against my principle to buy myself a necklace. Haha. I like necklace but the thing is, I don't need necklace now. What I really need now is a keychain. The last one that I had was a gift from a friend, but it's time to change it. I have been looking around for a very long time, but I never find it. Thus I give up looking for a suitable one. Hope that one day I will have it. Perhaps, if I had one close friend who were willing to buy one for me, it would be great. Jk.

The day continued on when my close friend, Mikha met up with me (Such an irony that the night before I just missed hanging out with him). We went for nice French coffee & cake, walked around city and chit-chat, then went to inspect some nice cars. Afterward, we went home, gathered with other friends then attended staff's farewell dinner at night. One thing I could say is: thanks a lot for the genuine company. Really grateful for the pleasant quality time, meant a lot for me, and that's what I need so much for now..

searching..

I used to be someone with big dreams
someone who knows what she wants
someone with the enthusiasm to do it all
pursuing always, no matter what..
 
seems like the dreams are all so far away 
seems like many doors are so hard to reach
however it is not the end,
as there is another world within the world we know.

our lives are defined by opportunities
even the ones we miss
yet there is always a new pleasing journey
as long as there’s a willing heart to find
there is a sure beauty within..

therefore, a new road I shall find
as long as I live, I will always learn
to treasure, to cherish, and to appreciate
and truly enjoy all those that I have for now.

Starting of December

Feeling very pleased as I woke up on Saturday morning. At last I have private time of my own. The very first week of December, I could say, a new beginning for another level of my working life; working as a full-timer. I still work at the current restaurant that I am working, it is just a harder level to go through.

I was being transferred to the main branch at the city and it was expected that I learnt to adapt and cooperate with the system there. My first day on the 1st December, Monday, was the most difficult. Being scolded, pushed away and alienated caused me to feel pressurised. Yup, it made me feel discouraged and i almost cried during busy peak hours. At night I couldn't sleep and felt very sad..thinking of how I had to overcome this. I missed Don3 so much at the moment. Yet i kept telling myself, I had to be strong and everything will be all right.

However, thank God that I didn't feel alone. After I finished work that day, Marleen brought me to eat ice-cream and then Robert called me and asked how was it. Therefore, I just couldn't help it but cried for a while.. it was a relief, though made me looked so weak. Later on that day, I met Mindy and Alan, and it gave me another encouragement, as they are my seniors whom have gone through successfully what I just started. On the way home, I saw the moon and two planets; Venus and Jupiter. It was beautiful. I felt that the Creator of this view was telling me to remember, 'I am always there for you.'

Indeed, few days later I started to get used to the work. Even, I felt grateful to be able to work well with the manager there. It was not easy to work with him, but, I could see his good side, and quite pleased to feel his acceptance towards me as working partners.Also, I received feedback from him and I was very thankful for the compliment. Things that I felt intimidated turned out to be challenges that I looked forward for the moment.

On the last day after I successfully gone throughout the whole week I went to Don3 just to visit. Surprisingly, my visit was expected for my colleagues there. Felt so grateful to have the bond with them. At night we went to German Dining and had a merry time together. Aware that, things in this world is temporal, opportunity and chance of being together are precious. December will be a good month, perhaps the best of the year.

Another Trust to Keep

A girl friend of mine, whom I meet almost on daily basis shared to me about her personal problems yesterday for the first time. I have known her for 5 months, been learning to get to know her, get to understand her, and learn a lot how to cooperate with her, but it was like the first time that she opened up to me. Often in this case, you will have a new perspective towards that person. Someone told me once that it was a priviledge.

It is not easy to carry secrets. It is always not easy to be faithful. I did failed before and I couldn't get rid of that memories, even thought it had been a decade. Since then, whenever a trust is given, it would be another try. It also meant as another chance to play a role of a good steward. Besides, everytime you knew more about a person's personal stuff, and it doesn't matter you are important or not to the person, then... you will know how much this person values.

Patience..

a girl knocked on me accidentally, I just kept quiet..
at work, I hardly ever scold people anymore..i am learning still..
a person mistreated me few weeks ago, and I could still smile..
when no one understand, when no one stand beside me, it is okay...

Everyone has problems to deal with. Everyone makes mistakes. Situations always happened beyond our control and sometimes, you just don't know how to explain it. Above all, patience is the key. Or else, we can't be a channel of blessing. Realising that tempatations become harder as I grow in faith, there is not a single moment which allow me to give up. Things happen for a reason and it is not my strength that keeps me going. For I trust and always hope. Love is patience. (1 Cor 13:4)

Harapan Dalam Kehidupan

Bangun sebelum jam 8, tidur sesudah jam 12an..Monday to Sunday sang waktu terus berjalan tanpa menunggu. Sekarang sudah Oktober, bentar lagi thn 2009. Haih.. Kerja yah, ok ok saja. Masih ada passion, masih senang, masih suka dengan responsibilities yang ada. Managerku bae, teman2 kerja da kaya saudara sendiri, terus org2 baru juga lucu-lucu, walau kadang bikin naik darah. Sekarang sih, kalo ada masalah di tempat kerja, da bisa lebih calm..da lebih sabar.. da ga dikontrol emosi seperti dulu. Istilahnya lebih banyak berpikir bagaimana menyelesaikan masalah daripada stres tidak menentu. Selain kerja? ngapain? yah.. Kadang ada meeting, kadang ada activity yang mesti dilakuin..Kadang bosen, ga tau mau ngapain.. tapi juga bisa enjoy sendiri sih.. yah.. gitu2 lar minggu demi minggu berlalu..

Begitulah kehidupanku sekarang. Kelihatannya membosenkan dan gitu2 aja. Tapi setiap hari ada pelajaran baru dan masalah yang harus dihadapi. Akhir2 ini sih lumayan stabil. Da ga terlalu bete gitu lagi, ato pusing. Well, tapi ada aja hal hal yang bikin membingungkan.. kadang tuh sampe bikin ga tau mau gimana gitu. Yah.. tabah2 aja, mau gimana lagi? Jalanin aja deh..

Akhir 2 ini banyak juga teman2 yang lagi bingung, banyak masalah, stress.. emang itu part of life. Bedanya gimana kamu mesti hadapin aja. Semakin rumit masalah yang dihadapin, semakin bertumbuh dewasa juga seorang individu, asalkan dianya berani mengambil langkah yang benar. Ada yang takut dan bertanya, bisa ga ya saya berubah? Kadang org bilang, ga mungkin deh.. impossible.. Eh.. siapa tau? Mujizat itu masih nyata lor... Di hidup gw, tahun ini bagiku tuh tahun yang cukup berat. Senangnya banyak banget, pusinknya lebih luar biasa banyaknya..Untungnya ada pegangan dalam hidup. Dan itulah yang bikin saya terus maju, pantang mundur. Kalo ga mah, gw da depresi kali.. da stress..terus bikin org sekitar pusink.. ngapain begini ? Yah.. sedih boleh, nangis boleh.. tapi jangan terus2an gitu donk.. Lu disakiti, gw juga disakiti. Cuman buat apa kita dendam? Kalo disakiti, yah sudah maafin.. ga ada gunanya marah2 terus dan membenci.. bikin kacau dunia aja.. Namanya juga setiap org perna bikin salah. Yah, kalo merasa bersalah, belajar berubah, kalo pengen hidup lebih baik, coba berubah dan cari jalan yang lain. Kalo ga dicoba, gimana tau? Jalan itu banyak, tapi apakah jalan yang dipilih itu bener? Mangnya ini hidup yang lu benar2 mau?

Bagiku, di dunia ini harapan dan pegangan itu ga bisa didapatkan dimana-mana, selain di dalam kasih Bapa. Soalnya yang tau jalan hidup kita cuman Dia seorang. Yang bisa terima kita, sekotor apapun kita, sebanyak apapun dosa kita, cuman Bapa saja yang sanggup.. masalahnya kita berani ngaku ga ? berserahlah.....toh yang tau semua jawaban cuman Bapa seorang. Di sisi lain, ada orang bilang, 'Daripada sakit, mending tinggalin masalah aja, mending cari kesenangan'.. hal ini banyak diterapkan orang dalam pelarian, karena ga tau mau kemana, ga tau mau gimana, ga puas gitu lor.. tapi yah, mendingan tau kebenaran, daripada hidup dalam dusta. Masalahnya orang mau percaya ga? Gw sendiri juga pernah hadapin jalan buntu, ga tau gimana dan bener2 lemah. Untungnya ngerti kalo dengan kekuatanku sendiri, ga bakal bisa, karena manusia itu dasarnya lemah. Tapi dengan iman, kan percaya kalo "Segala sesuatu di dalam Tuhan itu tidak ada yang mustahil." Dengan begitu, hidup jadi penuh pengharapan. Yang penting, mau buka hati. KArena didalam hati, terpancar kehidupan. Kalo hatinya ga mau? mana bisa maju-maju.. bakal terus2 aja di roda kaya tikus hamster. Mikir deh, hidup ini cuman sekali saja. Masa ga mau do your best? Kalo berani percaya, doa itu besar kuasanya dan iman sanggup mengubah segala hal. Kesimpulannya, kebenaran itu ada, kasih itu nyata, pengampunan itu ada dan hidup kekal itu bukan fantasi, asalkan seseorang berani menghadapi jati diri sendiri, mau bertobat, tidak putus asa, menerima kebenaran dan meraihnya.

The Forgotten Dream and my P.O.V.(point of view) towards Academic Life

Half-way during conversation with my manager during busy peak hours, I remembered my forgotten ambition which used to be my dream 10 years ago. At that moment, I studied my secondary school in Singapore. Whenever someone asked me what degree I wanted to pursue in mind.. I would say: Law. Yeah right.. No bluff here, it was true. I wanted to study law ever since I understand there is a profession called: Lawyer. And I really have only one that particular dream in mind during my 3 years of scholing in Singapore. Also, I always think that lawyers are cool. They represent the people, they believe in justice, they are smart, sophisticated, well-dressed, eloquent, rich, reputable, simply said, they got 'style'. Everytime I watched lawyers on tv or movie, I always get excited. Have you read John Grisham? Harper Lee's "To Kill a Mocking Bird? " These books are. When I was 14 I went to library and started reading about "Introduction to Law Education".. hard one to read... In the end.. it was just an unreachable dream.

Reasons & Factors involved: Firstly,  I told myself I would give up on pursuing law in the future if I didn't get an A for my English during my O Level in 2002. Sadly, .I only got a B. Then? why not tried it again during VCE year? The answer is, I am not 'smart' enough. You need at least 98 score to enter the law faculty and mine was no where near at all. Moreover, yes.. I love to read, I used to be a hardcore 'bookworm'. I love books, I like to write (as you can obviously see...) but it is just not good enough. 

Secondly,  when it comes to..Personality, surely, I would be the first one to get kick out of the bar.. Yes, I have a very strong choleric temperament, independent, stubborn and seriousness within. However, I am not good a good speaker. I scared of stage, I don't really talk to stranger, K.O. during debates, and never give speech in my entire life. I can talk, but in small group, not a big one, and not pursuasive at all. I can only..give orders and motivate people in my kitchen....How would it be possible for me to win the heart of 12 juries in the courtroom? Forget about it.

As well, my emotions becomes a weakness itself. Robert said, i would surely cry in the courtroom and would be very subjective when comes to relations. Though, he said, if i were entitled Bachelor of Law now, it would be very interesting.... said that my employer would have great advantage for his business. And some colleagues would consult me on how to get his assests.. Ckck..Well, back to the topic. At work, lots of my staff think I am tough woman, some said I were scary,... They just don't know that I am a cry baby in fact... a serious NO NO thing for a lawyer.

At least I have a B.A. (Bachelor of Arts) now. And it well-suited me. Apart from rigid, high demands, performance-based (which I don't really enjoy performing) life as a Music student, Arts School allow me to play around with whatever I like. I love learning languages; I major and minor in Japanese and Chinese, I enjoy learning facts and playing with words.. Arts subjects are all about reading, writing essays and research. Although I can't argue verbally, at least I could write during assignments. And the best moments as Arts Student : Taking down notes during lectures, especially when the lecturer talked a lot, and during history and Art EXAMS = the happiest hours of my life as a student!

The point is, my emo. side is pretty strong. And.. you hardly find this kind of law student.. Well, maybe, if I had very high IQ, objective and Strong and Stable emotions, I might be studying law during my academic years already. And most probably, I won't be who I am today if I pursued that path of life. As for the present, I am happy with who I am, satisfied with my current jobs, especially in the hospitality field, grateful for family and friends that I have. Yes, life has ups and downs and things out of control, but it is the learning process and I have 'FAith' that makes me keep on going with everything. I was proud to say I used to dream of becoming a lawyer, yet not ashamed of the paths that I have chosen today. When it comes to the time of wanting to play around with vocabs and writing a lot... Be thankful to have thing called 'BLOG' today where I could just write nonsense as much as I want without the fear of being penalised or getting a 'FAIL' ^_^

Pretty Blue Sky

Last Sunday, my friend brought me to a park so that we could rest and enjoy the nature. Well, it's kind of new experience for me; to lay down on the soft grass with eyes gazing at the sky. Believe me, it's such a good feeling and kind of good way to relief stress. i will try it again when i have the chance. Thx u so much 'K....', though only know you for about a week, you have taught me heaps and have been wonderful companion =p

Presently...

it's been a month, as I have precisely counted. Throughout, I have gained many new perspectives towards life, getting more mature and stronger as day goes by. Currently, trust is impartial, honesty is crucial, moments are precious, love never fails and hope is everlasting. Life is a gift and whatever happens, I believe it happens for a reason. Everything that have happened, everything that I have now,  I give thanks and it is good.

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:30

Hello Owen !

My first time looking at baby Owen, one week old, the first child of my cousins; Edwyn & Shalyn.
Looking at how cute he is, I wonder what will he become one day. Surely he will be a very successful man in the future, making his parents proud and smile. Besides, listening to Shalyn's life experience during the time of labour has taught me another life perspective. It is a very painful moment for her, but the end result is worthy. I am glad to see her well and happy now. A mother's love is noble, strong and unselfish, indeed. 

my day off

After 21 days of ceaseless working days from Mon-Sun (both at don3 & IBA), finally I am granted a day-off. During these 21 days, needless to say, it is my own choice to work non-stop. Why ? maybe it was driven by a desire to get myself occupied, or I was tired of boredom when having too much free time. Whatever it was, no doubt, income flows like water daily, but I have sacrificed lots of private time, resulting in a week of bad temper during work, unnecessary impatient, cranky mood, fatigue and the worst thing: having caught myself in a cold.. name it, flu. Therefore, aside from my going for service in a morning, I arrived home at around 12pm today and stayed at home until this very moment. A reason for recovery had triggered me to ask for replacement both from ministry and work today but..well, I have made a right choice. It has been so long since the last time I enjoyed this solitary private moment for hours. I have finished my choir arrangment script that I should have done last week, I had time for visitors and home dvd, and most enjoyable of all; a time of peace in front of my desk, accompanied by music in a background and a warm spotlight. Afterwards, i am looking forward for a good night sleep.. not to mention that I had a very nostalgic dream the night before.. Missing someone....

Blissful Saturday

i really like the time that I could have to spend solitary moment of my own. After having simple late breakfast, playing few songs on the piano, I watched Save the Last Dance 2 and thinking 'when was the last time I could enjoy these hours, relaxing at home'..in other words, I felt bliss. Beside, this movie motivated me to remember my original fields.. and man, my life is more than just working in a kitchen. One day I will work in art field, or some sort of music industry. Surely will be.

Also, today 's work was pretty enjoyable. Although it took only 2 people instead of 3 as per normal to manage the shop, it turned out satisfyingly good. At night, after a good one hour quality time with my friend, I had warm shower, music on in the background, and I will enjoy the rest of the night.

My Adorable Fishy !

I have been keeping fishes from September 2004. The one on the picture is the first fish that I kept from the start and is the only one that survived now. I am quite amaze at its determination to keep living. All the other fishes had died, but this friend of mine has managed to keep swimming. Now, it stays alone. I have not got time to go fish shop to buy friends for it. But it seems living happily to me. Well, I would like to be as strong as this little fellow. Though staying alone, though has to endure hours of hunger, water temperature, and maybe sometimes not-so-clean water (my fault) ? it never complaints.. unlike me. Haha of course fish doesn't talk. At least my pet could give me motivation to stay strong and be the survival at work.