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it's near the end of July now that I realise many things have happened...  Sometimes things change and sometimes things just turn up naturally. I discover more about myself that I never thought about before. It was a very confusing process at first; not knowing what to do, and not knowing how to control. I couldn't help it but just keep thinking about it. Even tears flow sometimes. During the first two weeks, my behaviour somehow impacted people around me and I knew that I shouldn't. However, I feel blessed that they are always patient, always being there and supportive of me. Gradually, I am more stable now. And still learning how I should keep going. I know I have to be stronger, since my soft spot keeps coming out at times. 

I was a fool not to realise it long time ago. I regretted when I used to take things for granted. When I have a chance one day, I would say sorry for hurting, for disappointing... I am grateful that I have a 2nd chance. I only wish for happiness.. wish for the very best, but not for my own personal gain. I  felt helpless sometimes for not knowing what to do or say, an ironic side of me. What I truly know is.....I just want to see a smile on a face......