Go Light Your World

I am working with this song for next month's choir project ^^

Chopin's Ballade No. 3 in A-flat major, Op. 47

It is not that easy to motivate myself to practise piano nowadays. My life as a music student seems like a long-lost-past. Yet, there 's one day when this particular Ballade came to my mind.. and it has been ages since I play a serious repertoire. Personally I found this ballade easy to listen to, though considered medium-hard in level of difficulty. Most of the time I prefer to play in minor keys, however this particular ballade is attractive on its own matters. Overall it starts of very much of classical music, then the second part sounds amiable and delicate, with certain inspiring parts, which sounds very lovely to me. The transition section before the ending contains certain drama and melancholy and it ends with a grand triumph.

In the Closet

Enclosed within the wall, there she was.
Juxtaposition between the obvious truth, against
the charming purplish-marron, the hidden mysteries.
"Mirror mirror on the wall", reflection caught in a flick.
Expression shown.. Was it happiness or sadness ?
Remember that the eyes would tell the truth, it never lied.
Door on the side, a sign of another path. It was a matter of choice.
How should the key be used? Only wisdom would knew. 

Patience..

a girl knocked on me accidentally, I just kept quiet..
at work, I hardly ever scold people anymore..i am learning still..
a person mistreated me few weeks ago, and I could still smile..
when no one understand, when no one stand beside me, it is okay...

Everyone has problems to deal with. Everyone makes mistakes. Situations always happened beyond our control and sometimes, you just don't know how to explain it. Above all, patience is the key. Or else, we can't be a channel of blessing. Realising that tempatations become harder as I grow in faith, there is not a single moment which allow me to give up. Things happen for a reason and it is not my strength that keeps me going. For I trust and always hope. Love is patience. (1 Cor 13:4)

Harapan Dalam Kehidupan

Bangun sebelum jam 8, tidur sesudah jam 12an..Monday to Sunday sang waktu terus berjalan tanpa menunggu. Sekarang sudah Oktober, bentar lagi thn 2009. Haih.. Kerja yah, ok ok saja. Masih ada passion, masih senang, masih suka dengan responsibilities yang ada. Managerku bae, teman2 kerja da kaya saudara sendiri, terus org2 baru juga lucu-lucu, walau kadang bikin naik darah. Sekarang sih, kalo ada masalah di tempat kerja, da bisa lebih calm..da lebih sabar.. da ga dikontrol emosi seperti dulu. Istilahnya lebih banyak berpikir bagaimana menyelesaikan masalah daripada stres tidak menentu. Selain kerja? ngapain? yah.. Kadang ada meeting, kadang ada activity yang mesti dilakuin..Kadang bosen, ga tau mau ngapain.. tapi juga bisa enjoy sendiri sih.. yah.. gitu2 lar minggu demi minggu berlalu..

Begitulah kehidupanku sekarang. Kelihatannya membosenkan dan gitu2 aja. Tapi setiap hari ada pelajaran baru dan masalah yang harus dihadapi. Akhir2 ini sih lumayan stabil. Da ga terlalu bete gitu lagi, ato pusing. Well, tapi ada aja hal hal yang bikin membingungkan.. kadang tuh sampe bikin ga tau mau gimana gitu. Yah.. tabah2 aja, mau gimana lagi? Jalanin aja deh..

Akhir 2 ini banyak juga teman2 yang lagi bingung, banyak masalah, stress.. emang itu part of life. Bedanya gimana kamu mesti hadapin aja. Semakin rumit masalah yang dihadapin, semakin bertumbuh dewasa juga seorang individu, asalkan dianya berani mengambil langkah yang benar. Ada yang takut dan bertanya, bisa ga ya saya berubah? Kadang org bilang, ga mungkin deh.. impossible.. Eh.. siapa tau? Mujizat itu masih nyata lor... Di hidup gw, tahun ini bagiku tuh tahun yang cukup berat. Senangnya banyak banget, pusinknya lebih luar biasa banyaknya..Untungnya ada pegangan dalam hidup. Dan itulah yang bikin saya terus maju, pantang mundur. Kalo ga mah, gw da depresi kali.. da stress..terus bikin org sekitar pusink.. ngapain begini ? Yah.. sedih boleh, nangis boleh.. tapi jangan terus2an gitu donk.. Lu disakiti, gw juga disakiti. Cuman buat apa kita dendam? Kalo disakiti, yah sudah maafin.. ga ada gunanya marah2 terus dan membenci.. bikin kacau dunia aja.. Namanya juga setiap org perna bikin salah. Yah, kalo merasa bersalah, belajar berubah, kalo pengen hidup lebih baik, coba berubah dan cari jalan yang lain. Kalo ga dicoba, gimana tau? Jalan itu banyak, tapi apakah jalan yang dipilih itu bener? Mangnya ini hidup yang lu benar2 mau?

Bagiku, di dunia ini harapan dan pegangan itu ga bisa didapatkan dimana-mana, selain di dalam kasih Bapa. Soalnya yang tau jalan hidup kita cuman Dia seorang. Yang bisa terima kita, sekotor apapun kita, sebanyak apapun dosa kita, cuman Bapa saja yang sanggup.. masalahnya kita berani ngaku ga ? berserahlah.....toh yang tau semua jawaban cuman Bapa seorang. Di sisi lain, ada orang bilang, 'Daripada sakit, mending tinggalin masalah aja, mending cari kesenangan'.. hal ini banyak diterapkan orang dalam pelarian, karena ga tau mau kemana, ga tau mau gimana, ga puas gitu lor.. tapi yah, mendingan tau kebenaran, daripada hidup dalam dusta. Masalahnya orang mau percaya ga? Gw sendiri juga pernah hadapin jalan buntu, ga tau gimana dan bener2 lemah. Untungnya ngerti kalo dengan kekuatanku sendiri, ga bakal bisa, karena manusia itu dasarnya lemah. Tapi dengan iman, kan percaya kalo "Segala sesuatu di dalam Tuhan itu tidak ada yang mustahil." Dengan begitu, hidup jadi penuh pengharapan. Yang penting, mau buka hati. KArena didalam hati, terpancar kehidupan. Kalo hatinya ga mau? mana bisa maju-maju.. bakal terus2 aja di roda kaya tikus hamster. Mikir deh, hidup ini cuman sekali saja. Masa ga mau do your best? Kalo berani percaya, doa itu besar kuasanya dan iman sanggup mengubah segala hal. Kesimpulannya, kebenaran itu ada, kasih itu nyata, pengampunan itu ada dan hidup kekal itu bukan fantasi, asalkan seseorang berani menghadapi jati diri sendiri, mau bertobat, tidak putus asa, menerima kebenaran dan meraihnya.

The Forgotten Dream and my P.O.V.(point of view) towards Academic Life

Half-way during conversation with my manager during busy peak hours, I remembered my forgotten ambition which used to be my dream 10 years ago. At that moment, I studied my secondary school in Singapore. Whenever someone asked me what degree I wanted to pursue in mind.. I would say: Law. Yeah right.. No bluff here, it was true. I wanted to study law ever since I understand there is a profession called: Lawyer. And I really have only one that particular dream in mind during my 3 years of scholing in Singapore. Also, I always think that lawyers are cool. They represent the people, they believe in justice, they are smart, sophisticated, well-dressed, eloquent, rich, reputable, simply said, they got 'style'. Everytime I watched lawyers on tv or movie, I always get excited. Have you read John Grisham? Harper Lee's "To Kill a Mocking Bird? " These books are. When I was 14 I went to library and started reading about "Introduction to Law Education".. hard one to read... In the end.. it was just an unreachable dream.

Reasons & Factors involved: Firstly,  I told myself I would give up on pursuing law in the future if I didn't get an A for my English during my O Level in 2002. Sadly, .I only got a B. Then? why not tried it again during VCE year? The answer is, I am not 'smart' enough. You need at least 98 score to enter the law faculty and mine was no where near at all. Moreover, yes.. I love to read, I used to be a hardcore 'bookworm'. I love books, I like to write (as you can obviously see...) but it is just not good enough. 

Secondly,  when it comes to..Personality, surely, I would be the first one to get kick out of the bar.. Yes, I have a very strong choleric temperament, independent, stubborn and seriousness within. However, I am not good a good speaker. I scared of stage, I don't really talk to stranger, K.O. during debates, and never give speech in my entire life. I can talk, but in small group, not a big one, and not pursuasive at all. I can only..give orders and motivate people in my kitchen....How would it be possible for me to win the heart of 12 juries in the courtroom? Forget about it.

As well, my emotions becomes a weakness itself. Robert said, i would surely cry in the courtroom and would be very subjective when comes to relations. Though, he said, if i were entitled Bachelor of Law now, it would be very interesting.... said that my employer would have great advantage for his business. And some colleagues would consult me on how to get his assests.. Ckck..Well, back to the topic. At work, lots of my staff think I am tough woman, some said I were scary,... They just don't know that I am a cry baby in fact... a serious NO NO thing for a lawyer.

At least I have a B.A. (Bachelor of Arts) now. And it well-suited me. Apart from rigid, high demands, performance-based (which I don't really enjoy performing) life as a Music student, Arts School allow me to play around with whatever I like. I love learning languages; I major and minor in Japanese and Chinese, I enjoy learning facts and playing with words.. Arts subjects are all about reading, writing essays and research. Although I can't argue verbally, at least I could write during assignments. And the best moments as Arts Student : Taking down notes during lectures, especially when the lecturer talked a lot, and during history and Art EXAMS = the happiest hours of my life as a student!

The point is, my emo. side is pretty strong. And.. you hardly find this kind of law student.. Well, maybe, if I had very high IQ, objective and Strong and Stable emotions, I might be studying law during my academic years already. And most probably, I won't be who I am today if I pursued that path of life. As for the present, I am happy with who I am, satisfied with my current jobs, especially in the hospitality field, grateful for family and friends that I have. Yes, life has ups and downs and things out of control, but it is the learning process and I have 'FAith' that makes me keep on going with everything. I was proud to say I used to dream of becoming a lawyer, yet not ashamed of the paths that I have chosen today. When it comes to the time of wanting to play around with vocabs and writing a lot... Be thankful to have thing called 'BLOG' today where I could just write nonsense as much as I want without the fear of being penalised or getting a 'FAIL' ^_^

Thank You Winishe

5th Oct - Winishe jie will be going back this December so she bought my 24th Bday Pressie in advance. So sweet. I love the French words : Lundi, Mardi, Mercredi, Jeudi, Vendredi, Samedi, Dimance ( trans: Mon-Sun ). Merci ^^

A Lesson to Remember

This afternoon, I went to my usual workplace to make sure everything is okay, and .. I found out things in a mess, out of control. As a helper, I understood my stand, and didn't voice out any compliments. Well, you just have to cooperate with one another, no matter how many disagreements you have with one another. But, in the end, I was the one who were asked to leave...

It was the first time someone chased me away for helping, and it happened in my own territory..
No doubt, I felt sad, and I cried...However, whatever happened adds experience that is worth gaining.

2 hours later, to my utter surprise, my colleague gave me a call to meet up. Thus, I went and we had a talk. We listened to each other's point of view about what had taken place...And the outcome is..., I learnt to comprehend what was actually going on from another's point of view and the good thing is, both of us could face each other and courageously forgave one another. Today has become a very valuable lesson, worth remembering.

My EQ

Your EQ score is 147.
You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.You are warm and open. Even when life gets you down, you're unafraid of the world and its challenges.You are comfortable with who you are. And you accept your weaknesses - as well as the weaknesses of others.While you are quite stable, you don't respond perfectly to every bad situation that comes up. But you have enough emotional intelligence to know when you need a course correction.

Expression
This number is the result of a formula based on how many questions you answered correctly on Tickle's Emotional IQ test. But your Emotional IQ score is much more than just a number: it's an indicator of success. Research has shown that people with high emotional intelligence scores — not necessarily those with the highest IQ scores — tend to be the most valued and productive employees and have the longest and happiest romantic relationships.So, where are you most emotionally smart? Your test results show that your strongest suit is expression — how much you allow yourself to feel and to express your own emotions.

My IQ

Word Warrior
Your IQ Score is: 117 (High Average)
You are equipped with a verbal arsenal that enables you to understand complex issues and communicate on a particularly high level. These talents make you a Word Warrior. Whether or not you recognize it, your vocabulary is your strongest suit—use it whenever you can. Since your command of words is so great, you are also a terrific communicator — able to articulate big ideas to just about anyone. Your wordsmithing prowess will also help in artistic and creative pursuits. The power of words translates to fresh ideas off paper too. Since you have so many words at your disposal, you are in a unique position to describe things in an original way, as well as see the future in your mind's eye. In short, your strengths allow you to be a visionary — able to extrapolate and come up with a multitude of fresh ideas. And you are in good company — bask in the brilliance of Word Warriors who have walked before you. William Shakespeare let loose the power of his pen. His ability to articulate the most subtle nuances of human nature and to create colorful characters are why his stories still have a major impact — even 400 years after he first wrote them. Whether you put pen to paper or use your understanding of the words around you to come up with creative approaches to problems, your potential as a Word Warrior is terrific.

For Standard Scores the average is 100, with 90 to 110 often considered the average range.

My Personality

You Are An ISTJ

The Duty Fulfiller You are responsible, reliable, and hardworking - you get the job done. You prefer productive hobbies, like woodworking or knitting. Quiet and serious, you are well prepared for whatever life hands you. You are conservative and down-to-earth. You hardly ever do anything crazy. In love, you are loyal and honest. If you commit yourself to someone, then you're fully committed. For you, love is something that happens naturally. And you don't need romantic gestures to feel loved. At work, you remember details well and are happy to take on any responsibility. You would make a great business executive, accountant, or lawyer. How you see yourself: Decisive, stable, and dependable When other people don't get you, they see you as: Boring, conservative, and egotistical

What's" Your Personality Type?

Pretty Blue Sky

Last Sunday, my friend brought me to a park so that we could rest and enjoy the nature. Well, it's kind of new experience for me; to lay down on the soft grass with eyes gazing at the sky. Believe me, it's such a good feeling and kind of good way to relief stress. i will try it again when i have the chance. Thx u so much 'K....', though only know you for about a week, you have taught me heaps and have been wonderful companion =p